Friday, February 27, 2004

Fleetwood Mac Goodness

Fleetwood Mac makes loving fun.
Fleetwood Mac is BIG Love.

And some SNL wonderousness:

SNL is love.

It's a seventies thing, fellow babies.
And to think, I was a kid during this awesome era...

Thursday, February 26, 2004

Mars Trines Jupiter

So I am really feeling good, yesterday and today.  I am making lists, getting my life and plans and goals in order, and generally taking advantage of this time.

Of course, when I get up today, my dad has not been having such a good time.  In an inexplicable foul mood, tells me he had a gross nightmare that he can't even explain.  This is an odd phenomenon, whenever I am feeling on top of the world like this, he is often extremely down in the dumps.

Oh, well.  Mine is not to puzzle or worry over this.  Mine is only to Do What I Will.

Monday, February 23, 2004

You are Shetland Wool...

You are Shetland Wool.
You are Shetland Wool.
You are a traditional sort who can sometimes be a
little on the harsh side. Though you look
delicate you are tough as nails and prone to
intricacies. Despite your acerbic ways you are
widely respected and even revered.

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Sunday, February 22, 2004

Two Friday Fives, since it's Sunday afternoon...

  1. Are you superstitious?  NoSuperstition:  1 a:  a belief or practice resulting from ignorance, fear of the unknown, trust in magic or chance, or a false conception of causation   b:  an irrational abject attitude of mind toward the supernatural, nature, or God resulting from superstition    2:  a notion maintained despite evidence to the contrary      My beliefs do not come from ignorance or fear.

  2. What extremes have you heard of someone going to in the name of superstion?     I remember seeing people pay extreme amounts of money to go listen to people teach them superstitious ideas at seminars.  This is when I was in the Xian church.

  3. Believer or not, what's your favorite superstition?     In light of question #1, I don't know if this is an answerable question.

  4. Do you believe in luck?   Yes.   Do you have a lucky number/article of clothing/ ritual?     Now this is something I do do more irrationally.  Whenever I see pennies, I pick them up, so all day long I'll have good luck.     As far as lucky clothing, I have this one orange teeshirt that I always get good responses from the menfolk (I will always remember that I was wearing this when I had my 30-second meeting with Counting Crows guitarist David Immergluck.  Much heat was being generated, my friends.  It was da hotness.) when I wear it.   Again, this is no irrationality, since the color orange is keyed to the second chakra, the chakra of sexuality and pleasure.  Oh yes.

  5. Do you believe in astrology?  Yes.     Why?   As a Gemini with Venus in Taurus (and that is all I remember about myself, astrologically) I feel that it is a good general indicator of personality.



When was the last time you...

  1. ...went to a doctor?   Twenty years ago, when I had coverage.

  2. ...went to a dentist?   Same answer.

  3. ...filled your gas tank?  I've never had one.

  4. enough sleep?   Enough sleep?  What's that?  I don't even know how much sleep my body needs.

  5. ...backed up your computer?  Uhh, all I ever do is clear my cookies and defrag occasionally.  I do have Norton Antivirus sofware.

This last Friday Five made me feel like a homeless bum...

Saturday, February 21, 2004

Thursday, February 19, 2004

I guess I'll have to read this now...

You're One Hundred Years of Solitude!

by Gabriel Garcia Marquez

Lonely and struggling, you've been around for a very long time.
Conflict has filled most of your life and torn apart nearly everyone you know. Yet there
is something majestic and even epic about your presence in the world. You love life all
the more for having seen its decimation. After all, it takes a village.

Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

"Come forth, o children, under the stars, & take your fill of love!"

Do What Thou Will Shall Be the Whole of the Law.

Another reason Bush is an asshole...

As if we needed any more fodder.

Ok, I don't think the president, his cabinet, the constitutional amendment people, the people in the supreme court, or anyone in the federal government belongs saying or doing anything about this issue. 

This is a lifestyle issue.  You have no right to legislate or amend anything having to do with lifestyle.  It just makes me so mad that Dubya has taken this country which was in pretty good shape when Clinton left, ruined the economy, gotten us into a war, and now he wants to turn the clock back and add more discrimination into the mix. 

Wednesday, February 18, 2004

The Law is for All

The Book of the Law is adamantly against the rule of mass man. We shall witness many disturbences in the years to come as their bad taste in social organization, religion and politics gradually increases and diminishes.--Israel Regardie, The Law is for All

So I had a lot of time on my hands and I've been reading my books. The more I read of Thelema, the more I am convinced I am on the right road. Being self-oriented is better, IMHO, than self-sacrifice or living for others. How can one make a real contribution to society unless one first deals with oneself? Living to please others can be a never-ending job. And then, so many different people with so many different ideas about what is important, what is urgent, what is needed right now, and what can wait. To comply with them all would be impossible, and who would want to? As we have seen with our current American president, some people have the most ridiculous ideas.

Current laws relative to homosexuality will have to be modified or repealed as they have already been in Great Britain.--Israel Regardie

I heard something interesting today. One of my gay brother's friends that we used to party with is one of the people that went up to San Francisco City Hall to get married. Today they only let fifty couples get married. I was hoping ther would be a constant influx of gays that wanted to get married. I hope they don't stop.

Sunday, February 15, 2004

I support gay marriage.

Friday night was a party for the people across the street, it was the husband's 60th birthday, there was a belly dancer, lots of crazy fun ensued. I walk dogs for these people, but I am not very close to them. Their oldest daughter (my age) and I did not get along at all when we grew up, and though now we both seem to be able to communicate and be pleasant with one another (I was even showing her some of my crochet work, and she showed me some of hers), there is definately a sense that we have very different values and perspectives on life, and therefore must interact on only a mundane level. Anyway, I left early as I always do from their gatherings.

My nephew came over yesterday, and had been with us a full hour before any of us remembered it was Valentine's day. That's how much we care. It was nice to have his Leo sunshine here for awhile.

I also spent some time knitting. I am almost through with a scarf that has taken me about TWO YEARS. One of these days I will have a digital camera and be able to post my work.

Monday, February 09, 2004

The Latest in Hermworld

Warning:  This entry is probably going to be very pissy/moany.  What can I tell you, I'm a curmudgeon... 

I'm walking the dogs today and I enter the park.  Just ahead of me was some guy getting out of a city parks truck.  He walks in ahead of me and then turns around, blocking my way.  Apparently, we are not allowed to walk dogs in the park--at all, even with a leash.  The guy was very nice about it, saying that basically it was a case of a few irresponsible people ruining it for everyone else.  Walking their dogs without leashes, and when asked to leash them getting belligerent.  There had been a couple instances of dogs knocking babies over.

I have no problem with any of this, I have no intention of going against a city ordinance.  So I leave, go around, go home and get the other dog, go around again (I actually live right next to this park.)  As I walk by the park again, I notice there are more city park guys just kind of hanging around and talking.  As I go by they quiet down and start talking again as I get further away.  There are an awful lot of city park guys around for some reason...

So this is just an example of the sense of entitlement that people have that just bugs me.  You have a park where it is illegal to walk your dog but they sorta don't care if you do, because  it's kind of agreed that if you want them to extend you this priviledge, you won't walk the dog without a leash.  So not only do you flout this law, you act like an asshole if someone asks you to comply?  I have no more patience for you my friend.

And you who are parents of a child who may be small enough to get knocked over by a dog, I have this to say to you:  Why are you not right there, close enough to the child so you can see what is going on?  Do we need to childproof everything so that you don't have to pay attention to anything?  That parental sense of entitlement really bugs me.

And the thing that really burns my onions about the whole issue is the amount of people who look at having a dog as an entitlement, when, let's face it, there are people out there that are just not responsible enough to have a pet.  I have been militantly pro-people-must-have-a-leash-for-their-dog since my cat was killed by an unleashed dog a couple of years ago.  Not only that, but you must be paying attention when you take them out in public.  I have heard horror stories about people just blithely going for a run with a dog on one of those really long retractable leashes and then getting out in heavy traffic with them, then being dumbfounded when the dog gets killed by a car.  You are not entitled to risk the life or limb of another sentient being.

A woman on a message board was whining about how her dog had killed a cat and she was bent out of shape that she was actually gonna have to go to court and have some kind of penalty.  I practically ripped her a new one.  I believe if your dog has bitten someone or killed another pet, you have basically made your dog as much a victim of your stupidity as the harmed party. 

Can you kind of tell I have a strong opinion about this?  And then I find out from my mom that they are also talking about making cosmetic changes to the park, building bathrooms, etc, and I realize, "Oh, that's why they were swarming the park today."  They haven't cared this much about the park the entire 37 years I've been living here, but since the city Beautification Committee wants a new project, this is how it goes.

To end things on a better note, I got my copy of Crowley's Liber Aba in the mail today.  So I now have something to stick my nose in to find surcease for the sorrow of growing weary of the ways of man.  I am being edified just thumbing through the thing, now I am going to settle in for a nice long read. 

Sigh, end of rant.

Saturday, February 07, 2004

Serving up a plate of "I'm as mad as Hell, and I'm not going to take it anymore!"

This entry is dedicated to Carlie Brucia, 1993 - 2004

Well, I watched Larry King tonight, I hope they string this guy up.  I just don't know anymore.  Where do these people get the idea that hurting kids is ok?  Where does a judge get the idea that a guy with a list of priors as long as your arm is a good risk to be let loose?

Being a thelemist, a person who is concerned with the ideas of Will, intention, and motivation, these are the things that knock me for a loop.  You see every man and every woman is a star, and each star in the galaxy has an appointed path to follow.   Here's Joseph Smith, a guy who is traveling down a violent road, and he's not ashamed of the things he's done, I think he thinks it's pretty nifty.  He's quite pleased with himself.  He keeps going down that road, and he doesn't stop himself until he gets to that place with the dead little girl. 

I saw that picture of the "alleged" killer, there is no capacity for remorse or compassion in those eyes.  And everyone deserves compassion, the word of the Law says:  "Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law; Love is the Law, Love under Will."  Every human being is worthy of compassion.  Except possibly for those who have extinguished every ounce of humanity in themselves.  That's what I believe this guy is.  He is not human, he has made himself a creature.  Somewhere back there on the road behind him he set his intention to wind up here. 

I say show him no mercy, he had none.


Lastly, I think everyone should go to this site.  They deserve every bit of love and support we can give them.



Tuesday, February 03, 2004

I'm such a Gemini!

"the synthesizer of dualities, polarities,
and opposites"

You have extraordinary gifts working with people of
all ages. You can access your deep
understanding, application, and synthetical
abilities dealing with the concept of paradox,
polarity, and opposition. Relationships are an
important focal point for personal growth and
development-- you need to feel things changing
in a relationship. You have the ability to do
multi-level thinking. You have great insite
and perception of what is going on with people.

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But enough of me stealing quizzes from

Last night I watched Audrey Hepburn in "A Nun's Story". It amazes me that people thought (& some of them still think) that living a life of such austere self-denial can help you achieve communion with God. Even more amazing was that at one time I sort of almost was going to be one of them. Not a nun, but sort of the austere self-denial thing. I actually broke all of my Rory Gallagher & Jethro Tull records, that's how austere & self-denying we're talking. People it was bad.

Even if you want to be one of those Christian people, doesn't the bible issue the injunction to "Taste and see that the Lord is good."? What can that mean? Are you really gonna tell me that to you it means spending all day in complete silence, taking an unflinching moral inventory twice a day and writing your faults down daily in a notebook!? That talking to people is bad? That you have to feel bad for making friends with people? I honestly don't think there is any human in the history of the world (including Jesus, if he ever existed) that would be able to adhere to such strictures.

Marilyn Manson said, "I started to learn that everything that’s considered a sin is what makes you a human being." I have thoughts, I have desires, I am not allowed access to God because of them? This doesn't mean that I'm walking around town wearing nothing but lingerie and turning tricks or whatever, but you get what I mean...

So if I was to define what God was to me (at least at this juncture in my life, or this week, or whatever) it is me achieving a state of No-Mind, or No-God, and from there getting in tune with All There Is, and from there learning what my True Will is, and from there...

I "worship" at the herm of experience... That means tasting, that means making mistakes, that means being joyous, that means talking to my invisible friends and being goofy, whatever I feel like that day.

Currently reading: The Chicken Qabalah, by Lon Milo Duquette--since I am a dilettante with a really short attention span who pretentiously considers myself a Hermetic Qabalist, this is excellent.

Teen Psychic, by Julie Tallard Johnson--yeah, I know, cheesy title. I really couldn't care less what people think is fluffy/not fluffy/too eclectic/whatever--I have seen online communities where people were practically discouraged from posting there at all because anyone that asked a question or wanted to discuss something that seemed remotely fluffy they were sternly castigated and called "playgans" by the group's moderator. Anyhoo, this is a pretty good book, has a lot of interesting stuff about shamanism, which is a topic I am interested in, and lots of meditation exercises. I like to collect different meditation techniques.